It is extremely important to let yourself heal. There's no need to fight it, or try to control it. When we're emotionally in pain, a common scapegoat is forcing ourselves into busyness. God wants us to slow down, breathe in, and listen.
There's no doubt that I've tried to control my hurt. I have pushed myself into busy. I did this by trying to find another job, always DOING something, distracting my mind by watching TV, distracting myself by not letting myself be separated from Kaleb. I let myself believe that not being "busy" made me inadequate. That is simply not true. God gently needs to heal me. Soothe my soul. Slow me down. Find the beauty in boredom. Because with boredom, He can show me what my inner self really desires. What I truly love to do, without distractions. All I really needed to do was to slow down, and let God re-center me. Gently teach me who I was again. The funny thing is, when we're stuck in emotional pain and deep hurt, sometimes we forget who we are. We forget ourselves. Unless we're healed from the inside out. Sit with our pain and face it head on. Let God come racing in to our rescue and listen to Him heal us.
His gentleness and patience with me has taught me how to be gentle and patient with myself. Sometimes the things planted in the most desolate grounds harvest the most beautiful flowers.
I have learned to be patient with my flaws. Gentle with my healing.
Every piece of beauty in nature God delicately painted for us. For our healing. Earth is hard. But if we slow down, let our souls breathe it in, and let ourselves heal, it is beautiful.
There's no doubt that I've tried to control my hurt. I have pushed myself into busy. I did this by trying to find another job, always DOING something, distracting my mind by watching TV, distracting myself by not letting myself be separated from Kaleb. I let myself believe that not being "busy" made me inadequate. That is simply not true. God gently needs to heal me. Soothe my soul. Slow me down. Find the beauty in boredom. Because with boredom, He can show me what my inner self really desires. What I truly love to do, without distractions. All I really needed to do was to slow down, and let God re-center me. Gently teach me who I was again. The funny thing is, when we're stuck in emotional pain and deep hurt, sometimes we forget who we are. We forget ourselves. Unless we're healed from the inside out. Sit with our pain and face it head on. Let God come racing in to our rescue and listen to Him heal us.
His gentleness and patience with me has taught me how to be gentle and patient with myself. Sometimes the things planted in the most desolate grounds harvest the most beautiful flowers.
I have learned to be patient with my flaws. Gentle with my healing.
Every piece of beauty in nature God delicately painted for us. For our healing. Earth is hard. But if we slow down, let our souls breathe it in, and let ourselves heal, it is beautiful.